Sometimes people just don’t get it. I care about school a lot. I mean not as much as I care about my family. Well.. it depends on the situation I’m in. I just feel like the people around me don’t care about school the same way I do. And it’s annoying. Because I feel guilty for being MIA so much just so I can have a career/ successful life/ some financial stability in the future.
I want to be with someone who knows how I feel, how bad of a great, stable future I want. Just has the same priorities as I do. I get other people’s perspectives. They have jobs, they’re out of school, they’re family is very important to them… and I completely respect that. So please respect my priorities.
Well I should take into consideration that I did tell Anthony that school should come first. But, in the end, it is all up to him and his own family schedule. And I really do respect that. I shouldn’t dictate him to live his life the way I live mine. It was just a suggestion. And I’m really sorry. “/
For Berlyn, I know she’s going to be ok. And I know that she has to literally take care of everyone. She has the biggest heart out of all the people I know, even though she complains about all these different stuff… but who doesn’t. I mean she is literally like the mom in her family. I just hope that she “catches a break” soon… career wise.
For Tim… I feel really bad. He knows that he needs to get it together, but just doesn’t know how to go about it. And that’s fine… everyone has their moments like this. I hope that he also catches a break too.
For Jeremy, don’t get me wrong… he is going to school and I guess making use of his time there and everything. But I don’t have the time to mess around right now. He has all this free time and I don’t. And I promise you… I am not going to just blow off school just to talk to you. That’s not me…anymore.
It’s one thing to rely on someone to save you a table. It’s a whole other story that if you get mad at me for getting the smallest table that can’t hold all your stuff that you can’t do your work. So please, I really hope you don’t get mad.
We deny our faults, sometimes our pain and most of the time, our truths. Whether or not you believe it to be true, we all are guilty of denial.
